To love or Be loved?

"To love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something, but to be loved by the one you love is everything."

Last Friday during lunch my friend asked me a question... If I got a chance to choose, who will I be with; the one that I love or the one that love me. I think for a while and I told him, when I was young I will choose to be with the one that I love. I always think that if I am with the one that I love, things will turn out to be picture perfect. Imagine this, you and the one you love living happily ever after...isn't it perfect? but that's no PERFECT in this world. Nothing is PERFECT. To love someone you need to sacrified lots and lots of stuff. Human are greedy, they tend to take things for granted when they know you love them more than they do. They tend to do things that will hurts you. The feeling is not good at all.

After seeing and experiencing the pain, Now...I will choose to be with the one that loves me. Of coz I need to have at least a little feeling for the other party too right? Coz being loved is a very wonderful thing... you know that they will be there when you need them, you know that they will there when you need a shoulder to cry on, to share your happiness as well as sadness. Someone that won't leave you alone when you don't want to be alone. Someone that cares for you... Someone that willingly do almost everything for you... Isn't it more wonderful that way???

And of coz, if I really get to choose... I will choose to be with the one that I love and loves me back... but like I said, nothing is perfect. Even if they do exist, I won't be the lucky one... so stop dreaming and go to sleep... :) or I think I should put it this way... GO TO SLEEP and START DREAMING!!!!!

Cheers

Lost And Found

I lost my anklet few weeks back. Was looking high and low for it… from my bedroom to my brother’s bedroom to my car and I even try to look for it in my office but to no success. Then I tell myself… stop looking for it. It will sure turn out by itself one day. My life experience taught me; the more you go looking for it… the more you can’t find it. So, I gave up. After a few days, I was looking for clothes to wear to work and I pick up this dress from my bed and something fell out and landed on the floor. … My anklet.

Friends That I Like To Keep Forever...

Another Chinese series that I watch recently makes me think of this topic to write; Friendship. How many friendship in this world that can last forever? How many true friends that we will have throughout our lifetime? How many of them will last? Many people will walk in and out of our life, but only true friends will leave footprints in the heart. Friendship is the most important things to me besides my family. When I see them happy; I’ll be very happy but when I see them sad; my heart cries with them. I do have lots and lots of friends but only few of them that I care and wanna keep with me for as long as I can. I’m very blessed and lucky to have them to support me when I’m down. Someone to share not only my happiness but my sadness as well.

Angeline – my secondary school friend for more than 15 years, we share almost everything. Secrets, clothes, shoes… I even stay at her house last time for a while when we are schooling. We go lepak together, clubbing together, sleep together etc etc. She knows me very well. Even though we do not see each other as often now and some misunderstanding happened here and there, she is still my very good friends. I really hope that she will find her happiness one day.

Celine – My first IT Line friend that I know from SiS. She too share a lots of my secret. My dark sides. Hahhahaha. She keeps me up when I’m down. She listens to my crappy stories. Stay up with me when I’m sad and when I need someone to talk. Giving me advise even thought she knows that it won’t get into my mind at that period of time. Never fails to listen to me. Never fails to go out with me during my hard times. God bless her and may all her wishes come true (too greedy huh?? At least one come true la… So… Celine, better think twice before you make your wish :p)

Audrey – My second friend from IT Line from SiS too. She cares for me very much. Taught me many many things. She is like a big sister to me even though I’m older than her (22 days  ) younger days; I’m very naïve, very blur, always get into troubles but she will be there to help and teach me what to do. Never give up on me. She brings me to many places that I never been to. She helps me financially and physically and never expect any return from me. Without her, I won’t be what I am now in IT line. I do care for her a lot too. Her love live is very complicated and I pray to GOD that one day, she will have a simple and happy one.

Annie – My ex colleague from Eisentech. When I first know her, I don’t really like her. She is a very straight forward and stubborn girl. She has a very firm self believe. But after getting to know her, she is a very nice girl after all. And I start to admire her self believe (yuen chat) which I can’t and don’t have (I am very soft hearted and changes often). She is very helpful and she rescue me away from my ex company. Thanks to her.

Loong – My ex patimas colleague. Not very close last time. But dunno when and dunno how we started to hang out together. Movies, dinner, drinking, clubbing and we even go to holiday together. He likes teasing me and damn irritating at times. He likes to disturb me even when I told him I’m not in the mood to play. Never once serious when talking to me. Never once will get a straight answer from him. But I think that is what makes him so special to me. I do hope that one day he will find his perfect partner and live happily together.

Casendra – My current colleague. Just got to know her not more than 3 months. But we click.. err.. I click .. err.. we click… (don’t know what’s on her mind but I find her very nice and easy to get along) My car pool partner to work now. It’s nice to have her company when driving to work. The road seems not that long after all and the jam doesn’t seem as long as it seem. We even plan a trip together to Langkawi on August. Can’t wait for the day to come. I really need a break!!! And I’m sure we will have lotsa fun there. Hopefully we will still be friend even when either one of us leave our current company.

Below poems are specially dedicated to all of you… cheers…

人生於世上有幾個知己
多少友誼能長存
今日別離共您雙雙倆握手
友誼常在您我心裡
今天且再暫別
他朝也定能聚首
縱使不能會面
始終也是朋友
說有萬里山
隔阻兩地遙
不需見面
心中也知曉
友誼是改不了

A TRUE FRIEND
A true friend never walks away
A true will always stay
A true friend looks out for you

A true friend will guard your secrets
Like a precious gift
A true friend is there for you
To give you a helpful lift

A true friend tries to make you smile
Tries to replace that frown
They may not always succeed
But they rarely let you down

These arms for you are open
This heart for you does care
And when I think you need me
I'll try to always be there

I'll listen to your fears
I promise not to laugh
Comfort your falling tears
I'll make this friendship last

I'll keep you near to my heart
I'll always hold you dear
Even when we're miles apart
Even when you're here
I hope I am to you
Everything you are to me
For the friendship we have
Is a special one indeed.

Timing...

Someone posted the below in my Facebook. After reading it, it bring back lotsa memories to myself. When you meet the correct person at the correct time, it will be happily ever after (which didn't happen to me before and I'm still wishing upon a star for it to fall down); When you meet the wrong person at the correct time, your heart will be broken into a million pieces (hahahahah.... this happened to me before. It hurts like mad. Took me few months to recover... but before I manage to collect back all the broken pieces, it broke into thousand pieces again. But this time it's not that bad as I already know that things like that will repeat itself. My friend warned me everyday, every second not to let it happen anymore. She ask me not to play with fire as I am the one that will get burn. I told her I can't help it as he really reminds me of him. Sometimes I wonder do I really like him or because he act and talk like him?? I don't know. So I decided to leave it to "HIM" He will make a way when there seems to be no way... He will be my guide and he works in way we cannot see.... He will sure make a way for me.... I Believe in HIM. He's Almighty); When the time is wrong, and you meet with the wrong people... then its doomed!!! The worst scenerio is... When you meet someone right at the wrong time. Isn't life interesting?? You'll never know what you'll get and when you'll get it. Be patient. Be brave. Be happy. Life goes on...

對的時間，遇見對的人，是一生幸福。
對的時間，遇見錯的人，是一場心傷。
錯的時間，遇見錯的人，是一段荒唐。
錯的時間，遇見對的人，是一生嘆息

For those of you that meet the correct person at the correct time, please love and appreciate your partner. Not everybody is as lucky as you to have someone you love beside you.

緣份

When I come across the below poem, I was touch by it's meaning. It's so so true. I believe that if things are fated to be together; no matter where they are, how far they are, how long they know each others or even if they do not know each others... They will eventually be together. In our life, we might love lots and lots of people... but only those FATED to be together will be together....

緣份是一件很奇妙的事
無論相隔多远或者相識多久
即使萍水相逄
有緣始終會相遇相識, 相交相知
在我們人生中會遇到很多人
但我們愛的人可能不止一個
只是最有緣的才會在一起

Cheers...

adeline

没那么简单

没那么简单

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經
想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶

Amnesia? Sign of Aging? Short Term Memory Problem?

Hmm.. am I getting old or am I having amnesia??? What happen to my brain?? I think I have short term memory problem. Sometimes, I don’t remember what I do or where I go even if it just happen few days back. I have to really think and think hard to remember what I did. Sometimes I have to ask my friends. For example, my friend says he wanna watch a movie 5 minutes ago... the next minutes I forgot what is the name of the show. And I have to ask him again and again. The next day, I still cannot remember the name of the movie.

I once saw in the web... They said.. Whether your short-term memory problems are due to medical problems or simple absent-mindedness, there are strategies to cope...

1) Pay Attention
2) Write it down
3) Visualize it .... etc etc

I think I will choose to write it down :)

Monday 5/4/10
Work as usual. After work, go home with my colleague Casendra. (her car is in ICU) SO I fetch her home. Mom cook today. After dinner, watch movie and went to bed. The weather is so hot I can't really sleep.

Tuesday 6/4/10
Work n work. Went dinner with Annie, Casendra and Loong @ Taman Megah. Gossip, Gossip and GOSSIP. Hahahahaha. Around 9.30pm, Cassie and I went home. Very tired. Annie and Loong go massage.

Wednesday 7/4/10
Still work and work. After work, meet Audrey in 1U for dinner and movie at 9.30pm. Then Loong came. Annie came last, right before the movie started. What movie we watch? Clash of the Titans (3D) lo. Nice?? I don't think so.... not my type of movie. Lotsa talking and not much action. After movie; mamak. Wasted my 2 hours sleeping time sitting there teasing each other, gossiping; as usual. Then go home sleep.

Thursday 8/4/10
@ office lor... where else can I be? After work go GCIS to wait for Cassie so that we can walk to the car park together. Left office around 8pm. Reach home eat dinner, help mom dye her hair and write blog lor... that's what I am doing now lor... pathetic huh?

Hahahahaha… TBC…

Friday 9/4/10

Last day of the week. Hooray... TGIF!!!! Went Taman Tun after work for dinner and TDH for a drink with Celine and Annie. Around 10.30pm, go home and sleep...

hehehehe...more like my diary than blog.