Take A Bow

The flowers are all faded now
Along with your letters
They will never
see the light of day
Cause I'll never take them out
and there's no turning back
it's for the better
baby I deserve
more than empty words and promises
I believed every thing you said
And I gave you the best I had
Oh.

So take a bow.
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
and like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love.
All you gave me was pretend
so now
Take a bow

The future's about to change
Before you know it
the curtain closes
Take a look around
There's no one in the crowd
I'm throwing away the pain
And you should know that
your performance
it Made me stronger now

So take a bow.
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
and like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love.
All you gave me was pretend
so now
take a bow

Well it must have been sleight hand
Cause I still can't understand
how I could never see
Just what a fool believed
but the lies they start to show
tell me how it feels to know right now
that I wont be around
so baby before I put you out

Take a bow.
Cause you've taken everything else
You played the part
and like a star you played it so well
Take a bow
Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love. All you
gave me was pretend
so now

Take a bow

"I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he WAS" I thought he won't play or toy with people's feeling - I WAS WRONG, I thought he was real - I WAS WRONG, I thought he has feeling towards me - I WAS WRONG, I thought the moment we spent together is fate wanting us to be together - I WAS WRONG, I thought "Life time pinching" is what you really want - I WAS WRONG!!!!. So So WRONG!!! I gave you love and all you gave me was pretend?!!? What a fool I am? Take a bow... you deserve it.

Sad Love Quotes

"As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you"
"The best way to mend a broken heart is time and girlfriends"
"Cry as I may these tears won’t wash you away"
"Listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye"
"We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us"
"Tears are words the heart can't express"
"The hardest to do is waking up without you."
"He taught me how to love, but not how to stop"
"Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream"
"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him"
"The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone"
"Real loss only occurs when you lose something you love more than yourself"
"It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces"
"Wherever you are, you'll always be in my heart”
"I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you"
"I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you"
"Loving you was my favorite mistake"
"Our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts"
"What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his Cinderella?"
"In my dreams you're mine forever"
"Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime"
"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else"
“If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go"
"You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it"
"I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last"
"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but it’s harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do"
"The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned"
"When a boy sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass"
"It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces"
"My heart bleeds no more since turning to stone"
"I gave you everything but it wasn't enough to make you stay"
"I hate you and everything we once were"
"True love will never fade unless it was a lie"
"If you love me so much, why are you walking away?"
"I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could drown you in them"
"Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me"
"While I was holding on, all you did was let go"
"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"
"People think it's holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go"
"Sometimes the memories are worth the pain"
"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried"
"My heart was taken by you, broken by you and now it's in pieces because of you"
"When you left, I lost a part of me"
"I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell"
"Everytime we talk, I fall a little harder"
"You never were and you never will be mine"
"Don't you dare remember me when she finally forgets you"
"Why did I fall for you when you just keep falling for her?"
"Where there is love, there is pain"
"Love is like heaven but can hurt like hell"
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"
"Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him"
"All I know is that I'm lost without you"
"I miss you more than you'll ever know"
"How could an angel break me heart?"
"When I see you smile and know that it’s not for me, that's when I miss you the most"
"When you're in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut, it will heal with time but the scars will never fade"
"Love is just like magic, but magic is an illusion"
"I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was"
"Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I’m falling apart"
"Sometimes you don’t realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you"
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met"
"You never know what you have until it’s gone"

I'm tired of pretending... I'll get over you!

I'm tired of pretending that I don't care for you. Each lonely night keeps lending an atmosphere that's blue. I'm tired of pretending that I'm not in love with you. I'm tired of make believing that I'm happy when I'm not. I'm tired of hearing people say just look how much he's got. If you see me laughing it's just a thing I do. I'm tired of pretending that I'm not in love with you. I'm tired of pretending that everything's the same. I hate to be indifferent when people call your name. I'm tired of talking to myself and trying to ignore. The things that meant so much to me when I had you before. I'm tired of spending sleepless nights so many now it seems. I'm tired of waking up to find you're only in my dreams. I'm tired of pretending our love affair is through. I'm tired of pretending that I'm not in love with you…

One thing about this heart of mine: All my hurt's gonna mend in time. It don't leave no scars behind. I'll get over you. I'll find me a guy one day. Who's not scared to give his heart away. When I do it's safe to say: That I'll get over you. I'll get over you. I'll get through, and when I do, I'll be good as new. When I get over you. From now on think I'll lay low, I talked fast, but I'll move slow. You taught me all I need to know `Bout gettin' over you. Sometimes I think I love you still. Wonder if I always will… But I know it's just until I get over you. I'll get over you. I'll get through, and when I do, I'll be good as new. When I get over you. Sometimes I think I love you still. Wonder if I always will. Love for you is so hard to kill. But I'll get over you. I'll get over you. I'll get through, and when I do I'll be good as new. When I get over you…

I'll get over you. Don't think you can get me down. Cause I’ve been on lower ground. As long as you're not around… I’ll make it trough and I’ll get over you. Guess you were not worth my heart. You'll never hurt any part of me again cause I’ll start without you and I’ll get over you…

I KNOW I WILL…

A Trick of Fate…

Farewell in Velvet
Celine’s farewell… in Velvet, Zouk. I reach there with Audrey around 11pm plus in Audrey’s M3. Park right infront of Zouk entrance and 4 bodyguards escort us in without having to line up!!! Cayalar… found their table and the 4 bodyguards told Audrey that they will stand one side and look after her. I was like? Huh? Need meh? Then Audrey asks them to leave.

I was drinking coke the whole night until he asks me to drink his glass. He asks me for my car key before I drink. I told him I don’t have car keys. He asks for the second times. Celine told him I'm not driving. Told him I don’t want to drink but he insisted. Down a few glasses full of liquor and my head begins to swing. I was so high and I can’t stand straight. Was laughing and crying non stop for no particular reason. That night, I was having so much fun and it reminds me of his farewell few months ago. It’s so similar. He was asking me to drink and drink non stop. Told him I was drunk but he won’t let me go. Until one moment I can’t stand still and all I can do is dance. I can’t stop or sit or I will sure KOsss… was dancing with Celine an Audrey. He is standing behind me drinking with his friend. Suddenly his GF come stand infront of him as if she scare that I will grab him away. Fine with me, I stand further from him. But he come over and asks me to drink again. Down a few more and I told him it’s enough. I really can’t stand already and Audrey brings me to sit down on the couch. I jump up and sit as the seat is a bit high for me. Once I jump up, he pulled my right skirt and Audrey pulled my left down properly so that I won’t “chau kong” hahhaha. He stand right infront of me and the table to prevent me front “chau kong”. How caring. This remind me of the time when we are in the car. He did the same thing. He put his hand over to my skirt and says…”see, “chau kong” already lar… you want to let who see?” I was sitting there for a while and Celine come over and sit beside me. I ask her to keep me away from him as I scare I can’t control myself and will do silly thing. She said Ok.

I was sitting there and looking at him talking and dancing with his GF. Suddenly he pulls his GF to dance with Celine. He come over to my place and asks to go over to his side. I said no. but he take out his hand and ask me to come over. I gave him my hand and he pulls me over. Nearly lost my balance and I hold onto his waist. He did the same. I can’t stand any longer and I hug him. I just can’t control myself anymore (This reminds me of me telling him that I like hugging him, and he replied... good for you). I know what I did is wrong but I can’t stop myself from hugging him. I tried to avoid him. I really do. The problem is, he hugs me back. I don’t know how long we have hugged each other (I don’t want to let him go) until Celine comes and pulled him away. Pull me back to reality that I should not do it. He went back to his GF. The feeling of hugging him brings back all the memories that I was trying to let go...

I was dancing with Celine and suddenly he turns back and holds my waist. He pinches me. I was shock. The feeling is nice but his GF is just behind him. What can I do? I can’t do anything but to gently push him away. Audrey saw it and come stand in between of us. So I was sandwich between my 2 best friends; Celine and Audrey. Both trying to keep me away from him before any dramas happen. Thanks you to both of them. I remember seeing Celine pushing him away whenever he tries to grab me or hold me. Kinda funny tho.

Until now, I still think he care for me. He really do. But WHY? WHY?? Why are we only friend?? I still care and think about him a lot. Even Alex told me we are very close. Some of my colleagues also say that we should be together. No fate or is it a trick of fate? Bring us together, letting us knowing and understand each other, letting me fall for him and take him away from me!??!!

I never thought I'd find someone like you
Though in my every fantasy I saw you everyday
I thought there was no way - to make my dream come true

I always thought that I would be alone
Afraid to dream that anyone was ever gonna see
The love inside of me - but how could I have known

A trick of fate would bring us together
A trick of fate would alter our lives
We had to wait it seemed like forever
But never say never to a trick of fate

What were the chances I'd be here with you
That after all the lonely years of searching everywhere
I'd turn and you'd be there - from clear out of the blue

Our lives are in the hands of destiny
And though we try to take control
That's not the way it goes - a higher power knows
How it's supposed to be

A trick of fate brought us together
A trick of fate altered our lives
We had to wait it seemed like forever
But never say never to a trick of fate

And now, something has begun - something very new
And suddenly the future's looking bright
Somehow when two hearts beat as one, fairy tales come true
And anything seems possible tonight

A trick of fate brought us together
A trick of fate altered our lives
We had to wait it seemed like forever
But never say never to a trick of fate

It just goes to show
That you never know
Where love's gonna grow
- It's a trick of fate

This is a happy ending song which 2 lovers fall in love and their hearts beat as one after some struggles. Guess, I am not as lucky as them. Mine stop half way “A trick of fate brought us together… and it just stop there”. Sad ending instead. Sigh… TRICK OF FATE. Some with happy ending, some with sad ending. That’s life right? Not everybody have a happy ending. But never say never to a trick of fate. It does alter my live. I might not have happy ending with him, but we have a memories. A memories that only shared by the 2 of us. I’m sure once a while, when he encounter thing and stuff that we did before… IT WILL REMIND HIM OF ME. Isn't that enough? Love doesn't mean that we have to be together. As long as the other party is happy... It's already consider as a HAPPY ENDING... am I right???

Never Give Up!!!

Have you ever observed the behaviour of birds in the face of adversity? For days and days they make their nests, sometimes gathering materials brought from far away. And when they have completed the nest and are ready to lay eggs, the weather, or the work of humans, or some animal, destroys it, and it falls to the ground, all that they have done with so much effort.

Do they stop? Bewildered, and leave the work? No way. They start over building the nest again and again until they have eggs in the nest again. Sometimes,and very often before the chicks are hatched, an animal, a child, or a storm destroys the nest once again, but this time with its valuable contents. It hurts to go back to begin again… Even so, the birds do not ever stop, they continue to sing and build, and keep singing and building…

Do you sometimes get the feeling that your life, your work, your family is not what you had dreamed. Do you sometimes want to say “enough”, the effort is not worthwhile. It is all too much for me! Are you tired of it all? Do you feel that the daily struggle is a waste of time, your trust has been betrayed, your goals not reached just as you were about to get them? Life strikes you down sometimes, but do you go on, say a prayer, put your faith in hope, not darkness? Do not worry if you get injured in the battle, that is to be expected. Gather yourself together and rebuild your life, so that it runs well again. No matter what happens… Do not shrink back, but move forward. Life is a constant challenge, but it is worthwhile to mostly accept it.

And never stop singing. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP. Have Faith....

This is the day

This is the day
This is the day
That the Lord has made
That the Lord has made
We will rejoice
We will rejoice
And be glad in it
And be glad in it
This is the day that the Lord has made
We will rejoice and be glad in it
This is the day
This is the day
That the Lord has made.

Oops… this song doesn’t suit my mood today. Today is my Cibai friend; Celine’s last day in the company. She is one of the most important people to me in this company. After he left, my life change from a cheerful girl to a moody girl. But luckily she’s here to cheer me up. Words can’t descript how I am feeling right now. After I accepted the fact that he left, now I have to accept another fact that she is leaving too. She share all my ups and downs, she share all my shitty idea, she is my msn kaki, she is my gossiping and keepo-ing kaki, she is my breakfast kaki and she’s my smoking kaki. After she leave, nobody here to comfort me when I’m sad and nobody here to cheer me up when I’m moody. She is really a Cibai friend for doing this to me.

Btw, I wish you all the best in your new company. Hope that you will be loved there. You really are a Cibai friend but I’m not, so I wish you all the best in your future and be happy always. Love ya and I’ll miss you… dearly… MUCKS.

P/s… This is the second time I write this as the first one gone missing and IT’S ALL YOUR FAULT for rushing me to go smoking. The first one is funnier. What to do? You lar… rush me. And now, this is what you get.

Oh ya... another thing... I wanted to say thank you to you for all the things that you have done for me.

1) Convincing me to go Jeram Desu (so that I can spent time and know him better)

2) Lunar Bar (for calling him to come over and there's where all the pinchting fight begins...)

3) Inviting him to VMware event (that's where all the fairy tales begins...)

4) Not following me back on his farewell dinner (that's when all the unexpected things happened)

5) FOR ALL THE ARRANGEMENT YOU HAVE MADE WITH HIM FOR ME!!!

Thank you for all the memory that you have given to me. Happy or Sad, it will always be in my mind. Everything happen, happens for a reason!!!! Part of the reason GOD makes you come here is to give me all those memory that I thought that it won't happen to me. I always say, I never get anything that I want. But it proven me wrong... I've got him. Maybe it's just for a very short period... but I DID GOT HIM. Better than none right???

I Can't Hold Back MP3 Song

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I Can't Hold Back

There's a story in my eyes
Turn the pages of desire
Now it's time to trade those dreams
For the rush of passion's fire
I can feel you tremble when we touch
And I feel the hand of fate
Reaching out to both of us
I've been holding back the night
I've been searching for a clue from you
I'm gonna try with all my might
To make this story line come true
Can ya feel me tremble when we touch
Can ya feel the hand of fate
Reaching out to both of us
This love affair can't wait

*I can't hold back, I'm on the edge
(I can't hold back)
You voice explodes inside my head
I can't hold back, I won't back down
Girl it's too late to turn back now*

Another shooting star goes by
And in the night the silence speaks to you and I
And now the time has come at last
Don't let the moment run too fast
I can feel you tremble when we touch
And I feel the hand of fate reaching out to both of us
There's a story in my eyes, turn the pages of desire
Now it's time to trade those dreams
For the rush of passion's fire

This Is What I Get???

“In regards to the issue you're facing, i must say that i'm deeply flattered that you like me, miss me and think about me a lot but unfortunately, to be honest, i don't share the same sentiment.

I apologise if i've ever led you to think and feel the way you're feeling now. It was not my intention from the start to end up in this predicament.

I thought you were matured enough to see the signals that i was giving which clearly showed that i'm not interested. It's not that you're a terrible person but frankly speaking, i'm not the right person for you. There're other better guys out there who'll suit you better.

I wish to see this as the last of this matter and we shall not touch on this issue again as i want to bury this hatchet. None of this will be mentioned again and i hope this will ease you in moving your life forward.

P/S: Would appreciate it if you could stop sending me text messages on your feelings and thoughts pertaining to the above as it can get overwhelming.”

We have been thru so much. We have done so much and this is what I get? Just friends and nothing more than that? I always ask myself... he don't like me? He really doesn’t like me? If he doesn’t even have the slightest feeling towards me, why does he do all those caring stuff? Why bother asking Celine to take care of me when he is not around? Why bother?

We still hang out once a while for dinner, karaoke, clubbing, drink tea with his new GF (which is my friend... or I should say; current colleague). Sometimes I wonder… things that we talk about or places that we go or things that he do with his new GF; remind him of me? I really wonder is there any empty spaces in his heart for me? I catches him a few times looking at me when the topic we talk about similar to what happened to us. Or am I imagining it?

Is that me that make him stay away from me? Because he thinks that I am a slut? That I play around with any Tom, Dick and Hairy? That I like any guys that come along? That he can’t find any security if he is with me?? Is that so? If it’s because of that, I really think he is a coward coz I told him before I’m a very loyal girl… Once my friend; Angeline told me before she thinks he is a coward if he stay away from me because of the above reason. She said… how could he let go of the person he likes just because he is scare? Just because of his past failure and he scare that he will drop flat at his face again? I guess he don’t trust me enough. Maybe is the way I portrait myself… Moral of the story… DO NOT give people wrong impression of yourself. BEHAVE!!!! :)

*** It’s all guessing and there’s no proof that what we guess above is correct. All based on our feeling…. Cheers

Why Are We Still Friends...

We do almost everything that lovers do. And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you. Every time your heart is broken by the fool. I want you to know that it hurts me too. It’s hard to wipe your tears away. Knowing that you should be with me. Now tell me why… Why? Why are we still friends… When everything says we should be more than we are. And tell me why every time I find someone that I like…we always end up just being friends???

What can I do to make you love me? What can I do to make you care? What can I say to make you feel this? What can I do to get you there? I haven't slept at all in days; it's been so long since we've talked. There's only so much I can take. And I just got to let it go. And who knows I might feel better. If I don't try and I don't hope. No more waiting, No more aching. No more fighting, No more trying.

"Never look back," we said. How was I to know I'd miss you so? Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind. Where do I go? Even though time may find me somebody new. But you put a dart through my dreams through my heart. You promised yourself; But to somebody else. And you made it so perfectly clear… Still I wish you were here.

You're the one who set it up. Now you're the one to make it stop. I'm the one who's feeling lost right now. Now you want me to forget every little thing you said. But there is something left in my head; I won't forget the way you're kissing. The feelings so strong were lasting for so long. But I'm not the girl your heart is missing. That's why you go away I know.

Hiding from the rain and snow. Trying to forget but I won't let go. Looking at a crowded street. Listening to my own heart beat. So many people all around the world but tell me where do I find someone like you.

Maybe there's nothing more to say. And in a funny way I'm calm. Because the power is not mine. I'm just gonna let it fly.